sorry guys about my mental absense

[fairy_tale_girl64]

its been a long summer...a few good things a lot of hard issues....
first the boys...they're brothers and are driving each other and me crazy! mental exhaustion is the key word to describe my summer thus far...and its only gonna get more dramatic i am thinking....
well you know we had the bathroom remodel to do..well the carpenters never got back with us but it turned out good..i was so gung ho at the beginning of the summer but after the boys were around each other too long..they wiped out my energy level and i never got half of what i started in "mission clean and clear out accomplished" so my dads found someone else to come in and do the work but gonna be another month to start..if that....so i have time to get my started mess finished
well then two weeks ago i meet someone..so far its been a very very great thing. but mentally all i can do is think about him...lol i feel like a school girl! i don't think i have ever felt for anyone the way i do this man...i just thought i wasn't the type to fall hard and heavy in love..and you never know things could change but i hope they don't.
but then this week we had another major heartbreak. we moved in this house 3 years ago and since then the only really people we've been close to are the neighbors next door..he is a single father with two boys...welll the youngest became like one of my own children....his brother and i had a great relationship too but not as close as his little brother. well monday cody and kendel (the two boys) were riding dirt bikes..kendal graduated this year from high school...and cody and kendel had a wreck, head on collision into each other...dust was flying everywhere and the boys couldn't see each other.....and collided....this was monday...well i didn't find out til tuesday...i talked to their dad chris that night and found out that kendal was brain dead and on life support. they were pulling the plug that night...so i was devestated....cody is fine..kendel is now dead...drew and i went to the visitation tonight and it was all i could take.
well now also for those of you who were around last summer and i was engaged..well as of today there is a possibility he is gonna be trying to come around again....and i don't know how to handle that...hopefully he'll get my letter asking him not to...but anyway...mentally i am worn out...and i promise to get back to me soon but thought i'd give you guys the heads up on whats up with me...

[autumn_child]

Wow, that's alot to deal with! Don't worry fairy, you take as much time as you need, we all understand. And I hope things continue to go well with you in your new relationship!

[daisy1961]

Lisa unfortunately life happens and you know we will still be here when the dust settles. Take all the time you need and visit us when the pressure of "real" life is too hard to handle. Deal with what you need to and good luck with the new man, I wish you all the happiness in the world.

[fairy_tale_girl64]

oh i'll still be around...just not mentally where i should be if that makes sense..i have been a little down most of the summer just out of sorts....but kendals passing really has hit me hard. but giving credit to where i should..i think god brought jo jo into my life to help me cause he has been a bright spot in my life...the bad thing is he lives 1 and a half hours away..and the distance is killing us both...which on the positive side...its not a one sided feeling

[daisy1961]

It is good to have someone in your life to help you over the little bumps and curves that are thrown at us. For a child to pass at such a young age is awful and when it is one close to you it hurts even more. Remember the good times and things about him things that made you smile and it will help get over any sadness. My prayers are with you.

[drewalot]

:Dyep lol

[BunnyRabt]

Lisa, I'm so sorry. That is just a tragic tragic thing, for everyone involved. That family must just be devastated, and I know it's really hard for you too. Last month we had a funeral for the wife of Mitch's good friend from high school, and she was only 30 and they have a sixteenth month old baby. When it's someone so young with everything to live for it just doesn't seem right. The only thing you can do is go on and be there for the ones left behind. When it's kids that you've had in your home and watched grow up, it's just hard. They're like family and the hurt is just as much as if they were blood relation.

And on another note, am I going to have to send Art down there to serve as your bodyguard to keep that guy away from you? Like you need another stick on the woodpile right now. Maybe he'll take the hint and take a hike. It didn't work once, what the heck makes him think it's gonna work now? Maybe he heard you are interested in someone and he doesn't like it. Well...he had his chance. (I'm not usually so hard hearted but COME - ON...he needs to get a clue).

[moreletta]

That's so sad. Take as much time as you need.

[drewalot]

yeah tha is very true mom i was really sad at the visatation i went with my mom and we cryied win we saw the casket

[fairy_tale_girl64]

well i haven't heard from the ex but i know its coming... thank goodness....but to add to the crappy week..my brother calls me tonight and ask me if i have spoken to his wife..he can't get a hold of her on the phone..and my sister had called him..my brother and brother in law are at the beach at a golf tournament...and my sister had called my brother to tell him my mom went to the ER...she told me earlier she wasn't feeling well..and had pains in her arm and just felt weak...and my sisters cell phone died..my daughter in sleeping..jo jo will probably be waking up to come here in about 3 hours..and i can't find out whats going on with my mom! now tell me i haven't had a week from well you know where!...i am so stressed out i could flop...not to mention the cleaning we had to do...we had ricks roommates daughter this past week along with my kids for the whole week...and the house was a disaster...i was stressed..four kids and so much tragedy..i need a calagon week!

[autumn_child]

I hope your mom's ok!

[BunnyRabt]

Holy cow, Lisa! When it rains it pours! Keep us posted. I hope everything is ok.

[fullbloom720]

That definitely hits hard, especially when Kendal just graduated. I hope for strength for his family and for you and yours, Fairy. And let this new guy in your life bring you some joy.

[devindemel]

Im so sorry Fairy, I hope that your mom is ok and that your new relationship goes well. Keep us posted if you can.

[fairy_tale_girl64]

well they admitted my mother and she is still there..they say things look good but i can't understand why they haven't released her..i think its cause she can pay for the stay and they have no worries..so they are gonna milk her for what they can. but she needs the rest and this will make her sit still for a change and get some energy..i know she isn't the healthiest a person can be..she had a pace maker put in 13 years ago when drake was just 6 months old but she's done fine with that...she just is a work horse....so i think things are ok.....but again hoping all they are doing is making money and not hiding anything from us...we went to visit her (first time they got to meet my new boyfriend) before we went out for a little while...

[autumn_child]

I'm glad things are looking good for your mom! Keep us posted.

[daisy1961]

Glad to hear your mom is feeling better Lisa. I am sure the doctors are just being cautious. How did they like your new boyfriend?

[fairy_tale_girl64]

lol my parents will never open their arms wide open to any man in my life unless he is very successful...like a doctor....their standards are way too high.
mom said she'll get to come home today...so i hope they will send her home...

[fairy_tale_girl64]

ok heres the latest.....first i probably won't be on much during the weekends cause we usually only get to see each other over the weekends..he is in S.C. and me in N.C. but anyway...i went to see him this weekend..my turn to go down there....we had a great time...we've only been seeing each other for 3 weeks or since august 2nd.or official meeting date....and yes we have a long road ahead of us...we argue stuff which i am not use too but we are more alike than anyone else i have dated....but he asked me to marry him this weekend...i told him if we are still together and can get along til the end of the year, then i would marry him...if not..i wouldn't cause i can't stand fussing...so i hope things work

[karihinz]

Good Luck!! What is meant to be will always find a way to be!

Hope you find true Love!!!